My first month as a Mom

from Sarah, who noted that she was able to write only because her mother was around to hold her one-month-old son

I had been so focused on the trying to become a mom that actually becoming a Mom has blown me away! All in a good way of course... but nothing could prepare me for those first few nights in the hospital by myself and this little face with these huge eyes staring out at me. I felt like everyone assumed I knew what to do...being one of those "older" new moms.

I have been around my seven nieces and nephews, but nothing quite prepares you for your own infant. And really, as a Choice Mom, he is all yours. Family are helpful, friends provide suggestions, but ultimately it all falls on my shoulders.

Luckily for me I have big shoulders... as does my son, as he arrived via c-section because his shoulders got stuck.

I was not prepared for a c-section recovery. But my own mom and her friends were all ready. The ladies looked after me so well as all I could manage to do was breastfeed, eat enough food, and drink enough water to breastfeed some more.

The first four weeks have been completely soaked up by my son, who happens to be an amazing baby. I do, however, jump with every squeak, grunt, sneeze and coo. I am starting to realize I don't have to pick him up with every sound, and that I can make dinner when he is awake (slings are a Choice Mom's best friend).

I can't remember Me before my son, but all I can say is every decision, choice or turn in my life has somehow led me to this last month and welcoming him in my life.

Got to run now... as someone is hungry AGAIN! :)